you won

walking
in the chilled air
hesitating
with each
step
carefully plotting
each thought in my head

all for naught

i tripped
again
i misspoke
again
i unraveled
again

and you won

why must we
continue this
tedious play

where i'm
insanity
and you're
reality

and never the twain
shall meet

one more
choked back word
one more
given up dream
will cause me to
vanish

right before your eyes

not that
you'll ever miss me

you never saw me
to begin with

(erase me)

going

there were
many times
when we were to-gether
that i had no idea
where we were going

the road
rolled out of an
endless spool
taking us further
and further
from your home

until i wasn't sure
what state
we were in

physically
as well as
mentally

but
when i leaned my head
on your shoulder

i knew i was safe

and
when i reached for
your hand
as we walked

i knew i was connected

and
when i closed
my eyes
and listened to
your voice

i could feel
the love
in every word that
you said

even if
all you were saying
was
"it's just around the corner....."

 home is just down the street

(near)

walking moon

when i begin to think
about the many times
i've walked home alone

with only
the tracings of another
to guide my way back

i start thinking about
how i've grown up
inside

into an independence
i never was suited to

searching aimlessly for home

some say the moon
can calm you

shining a light
down roads
unfamiliar to your sight

but i always saw
the moon
as a willful witness

adorning
lovers
with a ghost-like glow

while chilling
the heart of the
lonely ones

right down to the very bone



(search)

matched

sometimes i worry
that you become weary
over
all the attention
i show you

and that all the fuss
i make
is seen as some
silly girl crush

not to be believed

but then i see you
meet my ardor
with a loving look
in return

and i hear you
tell me of your love
(before i have a chance
to babble)

and when i feel you
squeeze me close
and in a single movement

lift me in the air

i'm floating
in your strength

and i'm living
in your love

and i'm knowing
all over again

that i'm as
cherished
as i ever hoped
to be

leaning into
a certainty

of one well met with me
(true)



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